Yeah...

As each day passes, the more depressed and stressed I become.
I try to believe those words that those of importance tell me, as I try my best to believe them.


"Be patient" they say, "Your time is coming." I say "I'm trying."

I really am trying my best to be because after all I'm still young.

Sixteen to be exact.

I keep praying that someday, someday soon someone special will come along. I've been hoping, wishing, praying, pleading,practically begging for someone just to want me.

But still, no one shows any interest at all i me.

I've tried probably all the the tricks in the book to grab the opposite sex's' attention without being 'slutty'.

Still, nothing.

Sometimes I just wanna give up. No, wait. That's all the time.

I've became very desperate, and to any guy who's single and looking, then I'm available. That scares me.

But even those guys didn't and don't seem to want me or have any interest at all in me.

I would just love to know one thing. What's wrong with me?


I'm really beginning to believe that there isn't any fish at all out there for me.

Maybe I'm not meant to even have someone to fall in love with. I don't know?

I'm just tired of this all. Always never having a guy in my life. Seeing and hearing your friends all the time "We're so in love." Then before you know it they break up and find someone else who's interested in them. Just like that.

I admit, I can be a very jealous person. I am extremely jealous of everyone who's dated someone.

Why?

Because at least they've had that chance to fall in love and most of all, be happy.

Sweet 16(:

I'm almost finally 16 years old. I've been waiting for this for a long while now. lol

The freedom to drive and get an actual job to make some cash!

I've heard it before and I know it's true, the old saying "With freedom comes responsibility." I know that and I will be careful when I get that first job and drive by myself.

I'm just concerned because I had considered working at a place that had recently got robbed. A cashier who is 17 years old had gotten shot and had to be airlifted to the hospital. Last I heard they haven't even caught the robber. That scares me a lot. I know that could happen at any place of business but still it's scary knowing that it could have been me or someone close to me instead of him. I can just imagine what everyone who works there is going through right now. Especially the 17 year old who had gotten shot. I'm going to pray for him and his family.

I can't wait until tomorrow though because I will officially be 16 years old. (: Wooohooo! I'm going to have a family dinner at a local restaurant and invite some friends. I don't like to be the center of attention even if it's my own birthday.

On relationships...

I don't think its right for some people, especially your friends to always talk about their boyfriends seemingly all the time to you.

It does hurt when you haven't had a guy in your life to have that chance to fall in love with. I've been single for so long now that it hurts me so much to have to hear an ear full every time you're out with your friends or something.

Even at public places you have to see it and I'm happy for the couples and stuff but it's when they start kissing and making out that makes you feel like shit.

It hurts me so bad that sometimes I have to go to the bathroom because I'm going to end up crying then and there in front of everyone which is horrible.

Things like holding hands and stuff like that is acceptable behavior out in public but not making out and things like that. Get a room if you're going to do things like that with each other. Because seriously there's people out there like me who haven't had that chance yet and I honestly doubt that mine will ever come...

It gets me so depressed just thinking about it but I try my best not to feel sorry for myself and make an effort to meet new people and do more things that include my hobbies.

To all Military Personnel, and any others who'd like to read.

-To All Military Personnel-

My name is Jessica. I'm fifteen years old, almost sixteen. I am writing this because it's the very least I can possibly do.
Some of my interests as I get older happen to be one of the Military. Since I was a little girl, I've always seen men and women in uniform as heros, because they truly are. They happen to look pretty dang good if you were to ask me while serving our country and keeping all of us free.

If you ask me, everyone who lives in this country should greatly appreciate the service and sacrifices that these men and women make for us each and every day. They're over in different,numerous countries protecting us as well as putting their own life in jeopardy all for us. To me, that's a pretty big sacrifice.
I am very thankful to live in such a country which has people to give and make the ultimate sacrifice for their country. It gives me a feeling that is almost hard to describe knowing all of these things. It makes me very proud as well to be an American Citizen.


Every night before I go to sleep, I say my prayers. I ask the Lord to keep all of our troops overseas safe and to send them home whenever their time comes safely. Then I say my prayers for everyone else I want and need to pray for.

I just wanted to let it be known that I do appreciate all the men and women in the Army, Airforce,Coast Guard, Navy, Marine Corps, and the Reserve for making that sacrifice for the United States and that I do Support the Troops!